"Yer talking a lot about love, and I suppose what you are saying makes sense. Lucyus," Gerett gestures to the paladin, hoping to involve him in the conversation, "seems to be fighting primarily out of hate. Which is fine, whatever works for you. I just never found that I have the time for love or hate. Goblins are digusting vermin and I kill 'em whenever I can because they should all be dead. But I don't hate 'em any more than I hate the plague. And love? Well I just don't know a thing about that and I don't see it fitting into the course of my life." For some reason, Mitch claws at Gerett and stares at him, a piece of dried meat from the priestess hanging from his teeth. Yeah, Gerett thought to himself. Love isn't really in the equation. I mean, I'm not sure exactly what she means by the word, but she's talking about children and memories and stuff that doesn't really apply to me anyway. Or maybe she's talking about women...but there's no dwarf women here anyway. He nods confusedly at Mitch, who tosses his head and focuses on his snack.Erisciana wrote:"Love and War are two sides of a single-sided coin," she says knowingly.
"But honor, honor's a word I've heard a lot. You say glory and honor aren't the same, well you're the expert. But to me? Honor is why one dwarf breaks his neighbor's nose over some perceived slight--what was really just an accident becomes an offense if someone mentions the word honor. Honor is the word a general uses to convince his soldiers to charge a hill they can't take--they'll die, but at least they'll have honor. Honor is the word invoked by the Guard when one of them tries to explain to me why what scouts do is not as important as what the front line fighters do. So I guess it's something dwarves in general understand, but it's never been something I understood.
"You know I never even intended on becoming a ranger? I had the same dream as any kid—grow up and join the royal guard. Thought I was a pretty good dwarf in the making. But when I came of age, the only openings were among the scouts. But I was a dwarf, and it was my task, so I put myself fully to it. Before I knew it that was the path my life took." Gerett realized he was talking a lot, but they were still waiting for others to awake, and Eris seemed to want to talk. She'd hopefully stop him if he rambled too long.
"Of course everyone just thought it was my thing. There’s a tradition in the royal guard—they always get the day off after a feast, for obvious reasons. But the rangers still report for duty before dawn. Sort of diminishes how much you can enjoy the party. The Guard, they just assumed us scouts liked being alone and sober during feasts. And after long enough like that, I guess I did.
"I think it took being kicked out in disgrace to realize just how separated I had become from them. I don’t think most o’ them even thought of us as dwarves. They were grateful to have the borders secured fer a time, but they had nothing in common with us what made it that way. You know what my friend said when he warned me to get away from home? He said, ‘I know you don’t really care too much about this sort of thing, but Lord Dwri has died.’ Don’t care too much! No, I never met the guy, but neither had my friend. But I am a dwarf, and my ultimate loyalty was to my liege. But even though he knew me better than anyone else, my friend just assumed I wouldn’t really mind leaving home, that I really did prefer the company of the woods to hearth and family. So I told myself I did.”
Gerett paused for a moment, taking a swig of water and staring into space. "So I guess Love and War have something else in common. I don't understand either of them. This is a job, just a job that needs done. Stakes are high, sure. Like shoring up a dam or clearing a cavein. Get about the work quickly so people don't die. But you don't go shouting about honor when you go to clear a cavein, and you do yer best not to die yerself. So as we're about this job o' helping Greystone, I have no intention of winning any honor or glory or whatever, and I also have no intention of dyin'. If it happens it happens, and I'm not particularly afraid of it. But saving Greystone and dying is a sight worse than saving Greystone and living, honor or no."
Gerett chuckled. "I guess if I were a priest I'd be a priest of tactics and elbow grease. Yer very smart and very good at what ya da, so I'll let you be the expert on Love and War. But even though combat is my trade, I'm just not seeing War as some great grand thing, It just is. We'd be better off if it wasn't. But that's never going to happen. So I'll put my arm toward making sure this war is not as bad as it could be. And then I'll probably do it for the next war, and the next. But I'm not going to mourn its loss if the war ends early somehow. T'would mean you and I can take a break from killing stuff and find something better ta do."